I am not that mean?

As you well know, every once in awhile people just rub me the wrong way. I know you are shocked but it happens. I am not having a good month or something. I went to a meeting today and a 'supervisor' type has been in a meeting with me and twice she has acted a fool. The first time it happened I thought it was just an isolated incident, she was new, etc. She is generally nice to my face but was rude to me when I brought up a very important point in a meeting.

Continuing on with today, well, it happened again! Now, I am just plain mad...stars and fire mad. I was dumbfounded with her attitude. It wasn't so much that she was mean to other people she was only mean to me. That racist blah, blah, blah. I figured it out. I love how people will 'put up' with you but as soon as intelligence or any other number of descriptive words I could use that indicate I am not THEIR average, this woman has the nerve to think I am dumb. Well jokes on you missy! I am loud, proud and black, african-american, or whatever your closet sheet toting attitude wants to call me.

You know, as usual, some would say that I am taking it too far and that not everything comes down to race. At first I thought perhaps it was just a bad day the last time or a miscommunication etc. This time though I watched and observed as everyone else went around the room and she answered their questions in a civilized manner but when it came to me she was flat out rude. How do we let people like this get into positions of power that require good leadership skills and integrity? It wouldn't be so bad if she was just any old jane but she's not. She is a very good example of the deep-rooted teachings of the LDS church. Oh, she is LDS through and through and they pride themselves on being so nice etc. Listen here though honey, I KNOW that y'all didn't allow us into your church and it has just been until recently that you started letting us in. The fact of the matter is that all those old LDS 'keep it white folk' are still in your church.

I'm convinced that she thinks I am stupid because I am black. I could look for an apology today but it didn't really happen the last time and I don't expect it to happen today. Though without mentioning her name I feel a bit 'vindicated.' Nothing though will give me more satisfaction that to watch her squirm when I do have future professional and personal successes. See this is what people don't understand, one of the worst things you can do to us is to treat us as if we are dumb. I come from at least the third maybe forth or fifth generation of proud African-American women that have endured and accomplished the impossible. We've done things that people never expected of us.